This is my Breakthrough.
Posted on June 29, 2008
To people reading this: Please don’t ask me what i’m talking about, it’s not anything personal against you, it’s just something between me and God that i’m saying…
Oh Lord, i’ve made some big mistakes with this, but you keep taking me back and forgiving me for repeating them. Thank you.
I’m so tired of falling back in the same hole that i’ve been stuck doing for years. I hate disappointing myself and God like this. But somehow i haven’t been able to stray away from this thing from Satan, this sin and burden on me from time to time.. And you know what, I’m taking a stand. I’m done doing all this, it’s seperating me from my Jesus. And that just has to go, right now. Lord, you know what i’m talking about, and i’m so glad i can come to you.. You’re my Savior and i have no idea what i’d be like without you. Except in hell and a complete mess.
You’ve fully opened my eyes and i’m so glad. at 4 in the morning too. heh, very nice on timing, no doubt. 
anytime you reveal to me something important, is perfect timing for me. I wanna cry out of feeling so free knowing this sin and burden has just been taken from me.. i can’t right now, but i know i might later sometime along the road…
I just had to put this down in writing/typing somehow. So i figured anywhere would be fine and i was on the internet, so i thought why not.. but really i can’t believe this, and i fear coming back to this specific sin because of the past promises and attempts to break it. But i know with God’s armor i can defeat this thing once and for all… Oh Lord, thank you. thank you. THANK YOU!!! lol, i can’t say that enough.
And I just gotta say that i’m done falling down, and pleasing Satan by sinning. The picture of hurting you every time i sin at all, hurts my heart a lot. But with this particular burden, it scars me to think of every time i’ve ever fallen with this and how each time it hurts you skin deep.. Oh man, it make me sad and so angry at my flesh nature. But you triumph, and i’m so glad.
I’m ready for you to take control of the steering wheel and help me overcome and conquer this. As i wrote this the verse came into my head, “we are more than conquerors in Him who loved us.” Thank you Lord. It amazes me that you’re already equipping me now, minutes after i gave this up to you fully.. I’m listening to Wrap Me In Your Arms by Michael Gungor and scripture like that is coming into my head.. Amazing, everything our God does.. isn’t it.
Well, my last thoughts of this… Let’s Do This, Lord! I’m ready, i’m with you all the way, and i love you.
Now, to everyone reading this: I just have to say, keep perservereing to serving God. Satan can trip us a lot if we give him the chance, i know. But God’s so much bigger than him, and has all power over him. Don’t let what Satan tries to do to get you down stop you in any way from walking on the path God’s set for me and you. Satan has many ways of deceiving us, and we have to be careful we don’t fall into his trap.. I can’t stress this all enough, please don’t let your guard down. And if you’re like me and you’re struggling with a sin or problem, keep coming to God with it, don’t get distraught over it. He keeps every promise he gives us in Scripture and to us. If you’re like me and you’ve fallen down repeatedly don’t get discouraged, just stand up again, dust yourself off and keep equipping yourself with God’s armor. You can do it, i have no doubts. God’s timing is different from what we want at times, but it’s perfect and He can suprise you. Have faith in Him and in yourself that you can conquer whatever it is you’re trying to overcome. Keep loving God, trusting in Him, and being in His presence, and i promise you… He won’t let you down.
God Bless all of you. and thanks for reading this.
In Him, Desiree Roxanne C.
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